Support System

I’ve come a long way since late last year. I’m really getting into this music ‘thing’ I’ve been involved with. I call it a thing because sometimes I’m not sure what to call it. I guess the best way to describe it is marketing and promotion but to me, it’s more supporting good music especially the music of independent artists and spreading the word of their work. I’ve written on some blogs, got a couple of the artists features on radio and music websites, promoted shows, run Facebook groups for them etc and I hope to expand on that a bit. Most times, I don’t think of it as a big deal. I’m just passionate about the music and about the artists I’ve gotten to know. It doesn’t really hit me until I get feedback from people whether it be a fan, the artists themselves, managers and other promoters. Apparently, I’ve given the impression that I am someone of importance but yet I don’t feel it within me. Recently, I spoke to someone that wants me to join their team in entertainment marketing and promoting. At that time, they even asked me if I was a manager. It really floored me and made me proud…yet there’s a little part of me that’s sad. The reason for this is the fact that some people that are close to me aren’t there to support me; as if I can’t share my excitement with them because either they don’t realize what a big thing it is for me or they haven’t really paid attention to what I’ve been doing, really showing no interest. Perhaps I’m looking for support in the wrong places from the wrong people but at times, these people are loved ones that I want to impress with my accomplishments and make them proud.

It makes me smile when someone asks my opinion on something or shows me love. It especially surprises me when it’s someone that I admire and/or respect. It’s happened time and time again where I’ve gotten messages from or spoken to someone saying ‘yes, I’ve heard of you’, ‘I know of you’ or ‘I’ve seen your name/picture somewhere’. A while back, I was introduced by a promoter to another one. He said, “You know Vee?” and the other guy was like, “Yeah, I know Vee! We’ve never officially met ‘til now though.” Earlier last week, a guy that goes by the name of Big Dho who is the mastermind of the HOJ (Hall of Justus) which is responsible for bring out artists like my boy, Darien, Little Brother, Chaundon, Joe Scudda etc…wrote on my wall on Facebook calling me “One of the most trusted and respected fans of HOJ/LB/D-Brock”. That was really WOW to me. Even this passed Friday, I was at a birthday party and a guy that’s a DJ on one of my fave radio shows here, The Real Frequency came up to me and said hi. I was surprised. We’ve only wrote on each other’s Facebook walls a couple of times. I honestly didn’t think he’d recognize me. I mean, I was trippin’ back in October when Darien and Little Brother were here. Pooh and I never really corresponded much and when I approached him to finally get a pic with him, he had this big smile on his face and was like, “Vee…right?” I’ve spoken to a couple of my closest male friends about all this, telling them how surprised and shocked I am. They told me the same thing…they said that I’m almost too humble. I was encouraged to really recognize what I’m doing but at times that’s hard to do when I don’t have many people to share my excitement with that understand what I am actually doing. I suppose when I really look at it, it is a big deal for me. I went from being painfully shy to actually networking and meeting people. I basically backed myself into a corner so that I had no choice but to come out of my shell. Don’t get me wrong, I still am shy especially when approaching people but I’ve gotten a bit better at it.

Honestly, I think I lost my point in writing this but it was good to let this out. I guess the whole support thing bothers me more than I think…

Tell me something….Do I have your support??