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6/26/09

The Way You Make Me Feel


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Michael Joseph Jackson
August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009



And when the groove is dead and gone...you know that love survives so we can rock forever...
- Rock With You


Even as I type this, I cannot believe he’s gone. He’s amazed and touched so many people with his talent. I knew his passing would affect me but had no idea it would be this much. I was out, downtown with my sister when I first saw the news on Twitter. When word came out of his death, I was numb and was fighting tears as I walked around. I came home and immediately started listening to some of my favorite songs, eventually with tears streaking my face. I couldn’t even watch the news, all the reports and tributes. I can barely type his name without feeling knots in my stomach. All I can do is remember and spread love.

My boy, Dwayne Morgan, a spoken word artist who I call my favorite poet posted a poem on his Facebook and I wanted to share:

A Tribute To Michael Jackson

I wasn’t expecting to write this;
It wasn’t on my to do list,
but it’s taken precedence;
After all,
you’ve given me so much,
It’s the least that I can do.
Growing up,
I wanted to be just like you;
The teenage Black boy on my tv screen,
that made people faint and scream,
every time you walked down the street;
they just don’t make them like they use to.
You were one of a kind,
And time will never produce another like you.
You gave the world your childhood,
And refused to let your inner child grow up.
You were the soundtrack to a generation.
You dedicated your life to the well being and enjoyment of others,
and what did we do?
We picked at you like vultures,
Ripping you to shreds,
until you looked nothing like your former self.
Yes, I too made jokes,
questioning whether you were black or white .
Collectively,
we thought that you’d gone off the wall,
but through it all,
there was still a love there;
a place for you in our hearts,
that’s come alive with word of your passing.
Despite the trials and controversy,
you refused to conform to society’s ‘norms’,
and marched to the sounds of your own beat,
in the process leaving us with beats to dance too.
I’m not old enough to remember
the first time a man walked on the moon,
but I’ll never forget the way you moon walked across that stage,
and how you had us trying to imitate you
in the school hallway the following day;
You left us more than just music.
There’s so much more that I feel I should say,
but what’s the point when these tributes usually come too late.
I will have to look at the man in the mirror,
and ask myself what more I can do to make this world a better place.
Truth be told, I’m envious,
Not of your fame or success,
But because there was something in you that we all wish we had;
a love for humanity; pure, beautiful, and naïve.
Despite the situation,
I always held out hope and believed;
I crossed my fingers and closed my eyes,
wanting nothing more than for you to succeed,
against the odds.
I wish you could have known
that you were truly not alone.
Your music will only stop long enough
for the entire world to watch your final show,
and embrace you with the love you’ve longed for.
Even in death,
There will be many who pick you apart,
But no-one can deny the power of your art,
So I say thank you Michael Jackson,
Dead at age 50 from a broken heart.


Chillin’ On A Saturday Mornin’

It was sometime after 3am when I dropped Darien off at the hotel. He and I were talking about when we could film this video blog we planned for our FB group. We didn’t have the chance to do it before the performance because of the events that happened before the show. We concluded that the only chance we’d have is if we did it in the morning before they check out at noon. Darien’s a morning person, the type to wake up at 6am so I warned him that I’d kick his ass if he called me at that time. He laughed and said that gave him an idea. I responded by telling him my blackberry is turned off overnight and then he shot back, “Ahh, but you forget, Lady…I have your home number!” My sister, Jojo and Amanda all cracked up at us and I couldn’t say anymore.
Out of pure paranoia (lol), I set my blackberry to turn on at 7am. I dreaded it too because I didn’t get to bed til after 4! When it turned on, I reached for my berry half awake. With my eyes barely opened, I looked to see that I didn’t have any missed calls or text msgs from D and went back to sleep. Probably an hour or so later, my eyes popped open, surprised that I hadn’t heard from him. Needless to say, when I did get to talk to him, he was half awake too which is rare. He was thankful that I woke him up!
It was struggle to get going but when we did hook up, we had fun. At first, I had no idea where to take him. We ended up parking on King Street in the theater district in front of the Roy Thompson Hall. After getting some tea at Second Cup, we ended up sitting in the courtyard at Metro Hall. Thank God for a beautiful sunshiny day. Darien and I great time chatting it up for the blog. In a way, I was thankful no one else was around to film so I wouldn’t have to be on camera with him! LOL! A lot of the time, we laughed but I did have the chance to ask him some questions that the members asked. We had trouble with some of them…there was one particular question I had trouble spitting out and there were a few times where D actually looked like he was embarrassed! There were definitely some risqué questions! I won’t go into details because I’ll post them here so you can see for yourself. I did the editing etc...and made it into 2 parts. Part 2 is the one with the more risqué questions and make sure you watch after the credits too! Hope you like enjoy!





6/24/09

Hi Hater!

I don’t think this is going to be a long entry but just wanted to put this out here. First, I wanna say: Darien, if you’re reading this, you may be a bit surprised about what I write here. I don’t think I’ve gone into that much detail with you about this but really, it’s not a big deal. I’m definitely trying to let it roll off my shoulders…..

In the last few months, I’ve received some ‘hate’ notes and other miscellaneous msgs on facebook pertaining my involvement on Darien’s team. People say anything from “You must think you’re hot shit” or something innocent like someone thinking that I’m Darien’s manager, making inquires about bookings etc. Even when word spread like wild fire that Foreign Exchange was coming here, I was getting msgs left, right and center asking general things like where do we find tickets and some even went as far as asking me if I could get them in for free! I was even getting message from folks asking if they could specifically meet Darien or have me introduce them to him. I was floored! I had really no direct involvement in putting on the show nor did I have power over tickets etc. All that happened was Aimee put me as an admin for the FB invite for the show to help spread the word. For the people that wanted to meet D, I just told them that everyone comes out after the show to meet and greet the crowd so there was no need for introductions.

Anyway, there was one incident I had trouble letting go and this happened the night Foreign Exchange was here. After the show, I was walking around alone and was stopped by a few people: a couple and another girl. The guy spoke up and asked if I was Lady Vee, saying that I sent notice out to the group before the shows for people to say hi if they see me or Darien. He said both he and his girl were members. I smiled, shook their hands and asked how they enjoyed the show etc. Meanwhile, the other girl just stood there silent.

When we were finished talking, I was waiting to speak to Phonte and over heard the 2 girls talking behind me:
Girl 1: Who was that?
Girl 2: Oh, you know that guy, the singer, Darien? She runs his FB group with him and stuff but I really think she’s nothing but a GLORIFIED GROUPIE cuz if you look at her profile, you’ll see she’s got all kinds of pics and shit with them
Girl 1: *laughs* Really?

Now you can only imagine how I felt when I heard this. In my head, I was fighting with myself thinking, “Should I say something? Should I not?” but I didn’t. It did bother me for a bit though. I suppose because it was the first time that something like that happened in person. I was on Twitter, blasting off about it, not in details just saying stuff about haters etc and Zo happened to catch it. Eventually, we got on AIM and chatted about what happened. He was surprised about what I told him and just told me that it was “crumbs on the table, just brush them off.” Zo also said that it seemed to him that people were talking about me and with what I’m trying to do, it’s not necessarily a bad thing. I agreed and eventually, the situation didn’t bother me as much.

I’m glad I didn’t say anything, didn’t look through all the members of the group to see if I could recognize her. It’s not worth it, sooo not worth it. Haters don’t know shit about me so I don’t give a shit about haters!! I’ll only get stronger…that’s what I have to keep thinking.

6/23/09

Good People, Good Lovin', Good Music In My Life...It Makes Me Happy, Sooo Happy!

June 5, 2009 marked the Canadian debut of The Foreign Exchange and it took place at Revival. It was a highly anticipated show. There was a huge buzz in Toronto before and even after and I couldn’t be prouder of my friends. It was a sold out show and although I was inside the venue before the doors opened, I heard that the line up to get in was HUGE!
While the event was amazing, there was one major hang up. The original plan was that they were going to arrive sometime early to mid afternoon from Detroit (they had a show there the night before) and I was supposed to meet up with Darien to film a new video blog for our FB group. I get a text from D around noon, saying that they got to the border and that he’d call when they arrived. I was just hanging out with my friend who’s like a little sister to me, Amanda’s house. By 3 something, I hadn’t heard anything so I texted him to find out that they had trouble at the border. For reasons I won’t disclose, their drummer wasn’t allowed to cross the border! They were stuck there for at least 2 hours. Then I helped them scramble around looking for a drummer to fill in for them. Eventually, they did find someone. It was evident that we weren’t going to have time to meet up before the show because now, they’d have to have a full rehearsal with the new drummer so I told D that I’ll just show up when the doors open at 9 unless I hear from him.
Just before picking up my sister and my cousin, Jojo, D texted me again to ask if I could bring and iron. The request made us all laugh but I know it was because they didn’t even have the chance to check into their hotel. When I just picked up my sis and cuz, he texted asking for an ironing board too which made us crack up even more. We were already on our way so I couldn’t. Besides, I couldn’t see myself dragging an ironing board to the venue! Can you imagine? LMAO
I texted him when we arrived and it didn’t take long for Darien to run out to meet us. He quickly gave us hugs and I gave him the iron. He said that they were still in rehearsals but would try and see if he could get us inside so we didn’t have to line up. I told him not to worry about us and just to go inside. He left us and we went to line up. I probably didn’t have to line up but I didn’t want to leave my sis, cousin and Amanda. I met some friends while standing there: Zera, I met her through a mutual friend. She actually was taking care of the folks who bought their tickets through the internet. I also saw Wan who was one of the folks responsible bringing FE to Toronto and was also hosting the show. He and I also spoke earlier when we were looking for a drummer. Wan told me that I shouldn’t be lining up and asked how many people I had with me. I then introduced him to my sis, Jojo and Amanda. He whispered to me that he’ll call me in a few minutes and when he does, to meet him in the side entrance. It didn’t take him too long to do that and we got inside to watch the last half of the rehearsal. I felt sorry for my friends because they all looked tired and D looked downright sleepy!

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It was way after 9 before they finished rehearsal. As they got off the stage, I quickly went over to say hi to Tay, Nic, Zo and Yahzarah before they retreated to the dressing rooms. I think the doors didn’t officially open til after 10 sometime. Manda, Jojo and I claimed our spots right in front while my sister decided to stay where we were seated. She had a really bad fall the week before and was still nursing a badly injured knee. The opening act was a local duo called Art of Fresh and their performance was pretty good. I wasn’t too familiar with them but enjoyed their music. I always feel kinda bad for opening acts because unless you are some popular artist, you don’t get the vibe you would if you were the main act. The crowd isn’t as hype when you’re on stage and it almost feels like they’re just waiting for you to be over and done with. It wasn’t any different that night. Maybe it could also be due to the fact that everything was running about an hour late. I saw some people really into them and I really liked them. I really wish people would support more talent especially when they’re local.

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Eventually, my friends hit the stage. The whole vibe of Revival hit the roof at that point. I looked behind me to see the place was jammed packed and I was pretty happy about that. It was really amazing to feel everyone’s energy rise. Perhaps I’m a lil’ biased because we were in my home city but Foreign Exchange was really well received and I’m proud about that.


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The drummer that they got to fill in, Ricky Lewis was pretty great too. Considering only going through 1 rehearsal with them and comparing the other shows I have been to, Ricky did extremely well. Phonte always made sure that he gave Ricky his props. It was also pretty cool to see Darien get one of the loudest ovations when he was introduced as well.

Despite the drama and tiredness I know they were feeling, my friends put on an amazing show…like I didn’t expect anything less from them!



Tay was jokes as always, laughing and carrying on. He even bugged me while on stage. At one point, he was asking, “how many of y’all 19 (side note: 19 is the legal age here) and over out there?”, then went on asking for 25 and older. After that, Tay was like, “Aight, this is where the truth comes out now…how many of y’all are 30 and over?” Jojo put up her hand along with a bunch of others and I actually did put up my hand but not for long because I was getting my camera set to film again. All of a sudden, I look up and see Phonte staring at me. He walked right over, grabbed my hand and held it up! “What are you doin’, Lady? You know you over 30!” said Tay, off the mic. Jojo and Manda were giggling and I saw Darien, dying with laughter and pointing at me. I smacked Tay on the arm to let me go and we cracked up too. Man, Phonte is a nut! LoL!



My 2 fave moments of the night were in the encore. The first was when they did a reggae medley which was totally unexpected. They did a great job! I didn’t capture it because I was too busy enjoying it! I was dancing and singing along, egging Tay on! Luckily, I found a video that caught the majority of it so I can share it here:



The 2nd moment was their last song of the night. They did an impromptu performance of “I Want Her” originally done by Keith Sweat. Darien told me later that they hadn’t even rehearsed it and you can tell because in the beginning, Tay beat boxed to guide Ricky for the beat. I’m so glad that I caught this. The dancing is my favorite part of this video. I also loved the fact that Tay got Zo to get up and dance! I can distinctly hear myself and Jojo laughing too!



I think it's safe to say a good time was had by all! Right after the show, the after party began and the vibe was nice. We were all dancing and having fun....well, except for my sister. As I mentioned earlier, she had a bad fall and was nursing an injured knee but she sat on stage and enjoyed the music with us. Speaking about my sister's knee, I'm about to share a few more pics from the night and thought I'd explain the pic with her & Darien because he's pouting as he hugs her: There was one point where Darien was hanging out with us, dancing and what not and decided to bug my sister. He went up to her while she sat on stage, playfully grabbing her knee, forgetting that it was injured! Darien immediately started to apologize, hugging her and that's when I took the pic! Despite the pain she felt at the time, it was pretty funny! LOL!
My Fave Shots From The Show
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6/22/09

My Vows

Lately, I have not been taking care of myself. For the last month, I’ve been averaging anywhere from 0-4 hours of sleep per night. My energy is low, I’m grumpy and snappy at times and overall, I’ve been feeling like crap. At first, I blamed it on still recovering from being sick for almost the whole month of May. Things have been crazy busy with Foreign Exchange being in Toronto for a show and Darien and I filmed the interview…more on that later. I just wanted to get stuff done…the video editing, stuff for the facebook group and other things that I keep going and lose track of time. I also haven’t been blogging like I should be! I’ve also been in a “funk” the last little while so it’s taking me longer to do things because of lack of motivation and have been quite anti-social. I won’t go into why I’m down but it’s a combination of things and I recognize them all. I’m working to fight through it and this is my first step…posting it here so I have it writing! Lol

  1. As of last night, I vowed to myself that I will get the rest that I need. I know that I’m on the verge of burn out so I plan to go to sleep no later than 1am rather than 3, 4, 5 or 6am like I’ve been doing.
  2. I plan to get back on my vitamins/supplements. I did take them for a long while and actually felt pretty decent about it. Then I started forgetting to take them eventually forgetting to take them at all.
  3. Lastly, I need to force myself to get things moving. I need to find the motivation and determination to do certain things. I’ve been dragging my ass for too long and it’s pissing me off! Lol! Hopefully, when I follow points 1 & 2, this will come along nicely as well…

Aight, so there it goes. I can now look back on here to see what I vowed. With that being said, you will be seeing blog postings on the FE show and Darien following this shortly!


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